What I do right now makes a difference. I need to keep him at a distance from me and my life. I would like to finish the laundry and so the dishes, but It is a beautiful day. I might go for a walk. Also, why am I so resistant to sending her info about perm for our workshop? I feel so incredibly inadequate. I also need to be focused. Maybe I'll go to the library later. From 4-5 before they close. I really don't feel like I have a lot to offer on the subjuect. I almost just want to take stuff from the workshop I went to, but I know that isnt right. Why am I so resistant? Fear.